Ok, so before anyone jumps all over me for the title of that post...(yes, I totally get that alcoholism is a true disease/disorder)...but honestly I CAN understand it...I can understand the depression one can sink into and how comforting a glass or two (or a bottle or two) of wine can be...but this post isn't about that - so please, again, don't jump all over me...I'm just saying that wine is helping me through Christmas.
Why? Well - if anyone remembers my post from last year about how AWESOME Christmas Eve was...having to spend it with a 19 year old drinking (well, Mountain dew, which to me is almost worst...) SMOKING (yes, actually SMOKING while 8 months along...) pregnant chick was...this year not only do I get the "pleasure" of being there with her and her baby - her ex-meth-head sister (who's only 22) and HER baby...but YAY!!!! My husband's nephew knocked up his new girlfriend he's only been with maybe 6 months now!!!!!!!!!! Aren't I just the LUCKIEST infertile in the world???!!!!!!!
fuck.
You know, I LOVE Christmas. I love EVERYTHING about Christmas. I always have. While I hate the cold (Ok, I don't love everything...lol) but I even love white Christmas's and the lights, and the trees, and Christmas music and the festivities and presents and you name it, I love it. But honestly - this year - it will come and go and I will still be a childless woman.
All I want to do is cry. and drink.
God this is going to suck.
Been there. And i remember how much it sucked. Abiding with you, hon.
ReplyDeleteWow. That is going to suck. I don't blame you I'd be cracking open a few bottles myself.
ReplyDeleteHugs!
There are days you just want to ignore on the calendar some years. I say ignore the entire season if possible if it helps you survive it.
ReplyDeleteSo glad I'm not the only one who feels this way.
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