Couch 2 5 K... since I WON'T be pregnant any time soon...

So. I HATE running. I always have. I am NOT a runner - never have been. I like exercise ... but I just can not run!

I've always said, literally, if I have to run to save my life - I'd die. So. Why start now?

I'm 32. I don't want to say "I'm not young"...because at 32 I do NOT in any way feel old...however, I'm really not all that young anymore.

When I was 20 and I first started exercising and losing weight, I ran on the treadmill A LOT...however I just could NOT run outside. You put me on a treadmill and I used to be able to run 20 minutes STRAIGHT with no breaks! Course, that was 10 years ago...

I've always WANTED to be a runner...I admire runners - I've always heard about the "runners high" that they get, and I've always wanted to be in that "club"...

So. The infertility group that I have talked about has a tri athalon in August. It's a bike (10 mile), swim (600 meter) and run (5K).

I want to do this so bad it hurts! haha!

I'm not so sure about the swimming (mainly because I have issues with getting water in my ears...long story...but I wear ear plugs and have bad ear issues) - so HOPEFULLY I can get someone to swim for me. I can bike 10 miles in my sleep! I LOVE LOVE LOVE biking! :D

However - running and I have never had a relationship (again, except on the treadmill).

BUT. I. want. to. RUN! I do! I see this as a challenge - PLUS it'll help me lose all this weight I've gained back.

BUT I'm looking at the possible weight loss more as a good "side effect" of this.

I want to train to get in shape to be able to participate in this AWESOME tri-athalon to help this AWESOME organization.

We'll see if I can do it or not. I need to get it out of my mind that I "hate" running - because I really think it is more of a mental thing.

There's a girl at work (who is bigger than me) who ran a 5K last year. Damnit, if SHE can do it, I can do it!

Plus - I look around at family members and I do NOT want to be like them. For example - my mother...who I absolutely LOVE more than anything (next to the hubby, of course, hehee) - can barely walk anymore. She used to be extremely active when she was younger and when she was my age she was extremely active in softball.

But now (and, granted, she IS in her 60's...) she can barely walk. Now she DOES have some sort of breathing issue that the idiot docs can't figure out (not asthma, nor any of the other 10s of thousands of dollars worth of tests she's had could find...) but like when we were in London, I "made" her walk a good 3 miles from our hotel to Buckingham Palace then to the London Eye, which is honestly only 1.5 miles from each other - but to her that could have been 10 miles...

I don't want to be like that when I'm her age. I want to be that person - when - I turn 35 I can say I'm in the "best shape of my life"!!!

Especially, too, since I have to get out of the mindset "well, I'll be pregnant soon"... :(

I've been using that excuse for 2 years - and have gained back 40 pounds in those 2 years, because of that excuse. :(

BUT One thing I am NOT doing is getting on the scale. I want this to be about training for a tri-athalong. NOT about weight loss. I will know that I have lost weight, of course, with my clothes and just how I feel in general...but yeah. I will NOT get on that scale! :D

Anyways - just wanted to share, as I will be talking about the C25K! :D