So I saw this on facebook from a friend...and I want to re-post it - but of course since facebook doesn't know that I AM sad...I can't post it.
However I think this sums me up right about now.
I truly am very happy for my friends at work who are pregnant - AND there are many things in my life which make me happy - but every day I'm just so flippin' sad that after 2.5 years we are STILL not pregnant.
It sucks. I have a friend, IRL at work who did IVF twice and has 3 beautiful little boys from her IVF cycles (one from the first and twins from the second)...thing is though - she told me during her time before she knew she was infertile and during the time they were trying but could NOT actually get pregnant - she became extremely depressed. To the point where she was put on meds.
I can totally understand how. No I'm not there yet. But day in and day out (lately) I swear every single moment of my day seems to be filled with the sadness of Infertility.
And - what sucks more is that I'M not physically the infertile one. But the man I love is. The man I have chosen to live my life with is infertile - which in turn makes me 100% infertile. No matter what - in sickness and in health.
I do apologize if the last couple of posts have been depressing...but I'm just in that time of my infertility that I have to get all my sadness out. I'm sure there will be more to come.
Don't apologize! This is how you are feeling right now and you need to get it out. You can't let it sit and fester. Big Hugz hon!
ReplyDeleteI sit at work and day in and day out think of having a baby. I sit and listen to the girls at work talk day in and day out about their kids and babies. I am happy but there is a part of me that is sad too. It never goes away. It seems worse for me when I am at work with the other mothers. It's difficult but you can't change how you feel.
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